One day

One day my heart will be whole again.
One day I will learn to stand on my own two feet.
One day I will learn to be truly happy on my own.
One day I will stop putting so much power into a mans hands.
One day when I have learned to truly love myself then I will find a man who can truly love me for me.
One day someone will realize that I was the one that got away.
One day I will hold my head high and be fine with just being me.
But today I am still searching for and trying to glue the pieces of my shattered heart back together.
Today I am still wobbly on my feet and need all the help I can get just to stand up straight.
Today I am unhappy broken and bruised.
Today any man I fall for will get my whole I will not be able to hold back.
Today I hate myself I think I am unattractive fat and unlovable I believe no man will ever truly love me.
Today I sit here thinking of the one I let get away wishing that when I had the chance I told him how I truly felt about him instead of sugar coating it to spare my heart.
Today I hang my head low to the ground and I feel like I will never be ok with just me.
One day I will be ok......