Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Long Night
Well just got home a little bit ago from taking my baby girl to the ER =( they took a chest X-RAY and they said it was too faint to tell but they were almost postive that she has phenomenae I hate my baby is sick it makes me want to cry =( all I want to do is hold her all night this is by far the worst holiday season ive ever had =( I am just hoping this is as bad as it gets and she doesnt end up having to say in the hospital! Mommy loves you baby girl =(
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
I am a strong woman!
I am finally realizing that I am strong woman!
I am learning that I can stand on my own two feet and that I am going to be ok!
Yes there will be times that I am going to fall but I have great family members and a great friend (Jessica Carothers) who will either be there to catch me or pick me up and dust me off.
Yes I have scares and bruises that will never fully heal but they are my reminders of the roads I don't want to go back down.
I am sure that while I am turning to this new chapter in my life that I will run into some speed bumps and get some paper cuts but I will just take the good with bad and try to focus on the positive.
Yes I am gonna have bad days where I am sad and want to cry but that is normal.
It is just time for me to grow up and be the best mommy I can be!
My kids are my world and I love them more than anything else in the world and its time that I stop chasing these silly boys and focus on my babies, school, work, keeping my head above water, and giving my babies the best life I can give them!
I am a strong independent woman!
I am learning that I can stand on my own two feet and that I am going to be ok!
Yes there will be times that I am going to fall but I have great family members and a great friend (Jessica Carothers) who will either be there to catch me or pick me up and dust me off.
Yes I have scares and bruises that will never fully heal but they are my reminders of the roads I don't want to go back down.
I am sure that while I am turning to this new chapter in my life that I will run into some speed bumps and get some paper cuts but I will just take the good with bad and try to focus on the positive.
Yes I am gonna have bad days where I am sad and want to cry but that is normal.
It is just time for me to grow up and be the best mommy I can be!
My kids are my world and I love them more than anything else in the world and its time that I stop chasing these silly boys and focus on my babies, school, work, keeping my head above water, and giving my babies the best life I can give them!
I am a strong independent woman!
choices
Do I listen to my head or do I listen to my heart??
My head is telling me to give up and move on! If I continue trying to be with him then I will contiue feeling alone and not know when the next time I will hear from him and I dont know if I can live like that!
My heart is telling me give him one more chance! I do love him and I want "us" to make it! I just dont know how much more I can handle.
I have some major thinking to do and defintly have some choices to make.
Do I liaten to my head or my heart??
My head is telling me to give up and move on! If I continue trying to be with him then I will contiue feeling alone and not know when the next time I will hear from him and I dont know if I can live like that!
My heart is telling me give him one more chance! I do love him and I want "us" to make it! I just dont know how much more I can handle.
I have some major thinking to do and defintly have some choices to make.
Do I liaten to my head or my heart??
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Stolen Heart
My heart achs without you but when I am with you my heart feels like a million butterflies flying free.
I love the way you hold me in your arms like it was our last night on earth together.
I love the feel of your soft sweet lips on mine.
I love the way you look into my eyes and tell me I am the only girl you will ever love.
I love the feel of your smooth body intertwined with mine.
I love the feel of your finger tips tracing every inch of my body.
Then I wake up from this wonderful dream and relize that I am alone and your heart still belong to someone else.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
February 4, 2003
I love the way you hold me in your arms like it was our last night on earth together.
I love the feel of your soft sweet lips on mine.
I love the way you look into my eyes and tell me I am the only girl you will ever love.
I love the feel of your smooth body intertwined with mine.
I love the feel of your finger tips tracing every inch of my body.
Then I wake up from this wonderful dream and relize that I am alone and your heart still belong to someone else.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
February 4, 2003
One More Chance To Live
My heart breaks everytime I think fo the love I lost when I lost you.
I miss your arms wrapped around my waist.
I miss getting lost in your eyes.
I miss the way you always put a smile on my face even when I was in the worst mood.
When I was with you it was like a breath of fresh air.
You made life worth living and now without you in my life there is nothing to live for.
I just want one more chance to prove how much I love you.
I want one more chance to live.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 17, 2003
I miss your arms wrapped around my waist.
I miss getting lost in your eyes.
I miss the way you always put a smile on my face even when I was in the worst mood.
When I was with you it was like a breath of fresh air.
You made life worth living and now without you in my life there is nothing to live for.
I just want one more chance to prove how much I love you.
I want one more chance to live.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 17, 2003
First Impression
We talked all night we shared stories, smiles, and heartach.
Through all of this I never would have thought a first impresson would have such an effect on me.
I never thought with just a first impression I would know this is where I was ment to end up.
So I am going to take this first impression and hold it close to my heart and never let it go.
And if this is as far as we ever get at least I will always have that sweet first impression.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 16, 2003
Through all of this I never would have thought a first impresson would have such an effect on me.
I never thought with just a first impression I would know this is where I was ment to end up.
So I am going to take this first impression and hold it close to my heart and never let it go.
And if this is as far as we ever get at least I will always have that sweet first impression.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 16, 2003
A Simple Touch
His hand touched my face and I relized what I lost.
He held me in his arms and I just felt like I was where I was supposed to be.
I lost him because I was so wrapped up in myself.
I was young and stupid he treated me like a goddess and I just left him hanging in the wind.
If I could take back everything bad I would in a heartbeat.
I guess that old saying "you never know what you have untill its gone" really applies here.
Why couldnt I have relized what I had before I lost it.
I would give anything to be with him again.
I relized I lost the greatest thing that ever happened to me with just one simple touch
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
July 10, 2003
He held me in his arms and I just felt like I was where I was supposed to be.
I lost him because I was so wrapped up in myself.
I was young and stupid he treated me like a goddess and I just left him hanging in the wind.
If I could take back everything bad I would in a heartbeat.
I guess that old saying "you never know what you have untill its gone" really applies here.
Why couldnt I have relized what I had before I lost it.
I would give anything to be with him again.
I relized I lost the greatest thing that ever happened to me with just one simple touch
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
July 10, 2003
Remember
Late at night when you are by yourself and feeling lonley remember all the great times we shared together and remember all the bad and sad times too.
All these times are what made us last as long as we did and it was these times that caused us to split apart.
Now I am so far apart from you that I cant stand it.
I cry myself to sleep every night that we are not together and I want so much for us to be together.
For you to hold me in your arms and feel your soft sweet lips on mine.
I want to hear your sweet voice telling me that you love me and that you never stopped loving me and you never will for as long as you and me are here on this earth.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
July 19, 2003
All these times are what made us last as long as we did and it was these times that caused us to split apart.
Now I am so far apart from you that I cant stand it.
I cry myself to sleep every night that we are not together and I want so much for us to be together.
For you to hold me in your arms and feel your soft sweet lips on mine.
I want to hear your sweet voice telling me that you love me and that you never stopped loving me and you never will for as long as you and me are here on this earth.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
July 19, 2003
Eyes Closed
Eyes close and see the face of the one whom they desire.
Crystal blue eyes glance at her and only see what she is doing.
Her eyes catch his eyes and holds them for 1...2...3... seconds.
Then the crystal blue eyes slip slowly into the shadows
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
January 16, 2004
Crystal blue eyes glance at her and only see what she is doing.
Her eyes catch his eyes and holds them for 1...2...3... seconds.
Then the crystal blue eyes slip slowly into the shadows
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
January 16, 2004
Nine Long Months
I carried you in my tummy for nine long months counting every kick and getting more and more excited with each passing day knowing that soon I would be able to hold you in my arms.
Then finally that day came you were brought into this world on April 10, 2007.
That day was the happiest day of my life.
I will never forget the feeling I got holdong you in my arms for the first time.
You are mommys pride and joy!
Now you are getting so big!
I know you are only five months old but I just dont know where the time went.
It feels like yesterday we were in the hospital and you were only a few hours old.
Mommy loves you more than anything else in this worls!
You are mommys angel!
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
September 1, 2007
Wirtten for: Colton
Then finally that day came you were brought into this world on April 10, 2007.
That day was the happiest day of my life.
I will never forget the feeling I got holdong you in my arms for the first time.
You are mommys pride and joy!
Now you are getting so big!
I know you are only five months old but I just dont know where the time went.
It feels like yesterday we were in the hospital and you were only a few hours old.
Mommy loves you more than anything else in this worls!
You are mommys angel!
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
September 1, 2007
Wirtten for: Colton
I am Me
I am me nothing less nothing more.
I have stengths and weaknesses.
I am far from perfect.
I wear my heart on my sleeve.
I love way to fast and trust far to easily.
Ive had my fair share of heartach and shed more than my share of tears.
I am me nothing less nothing more.
Ive held, loved, and nurtured two beautiful babies.
Ive been thrown up, pooped, and peed on. Ive kissed cuts, scrapes, and brusies.
Ive stayed up all night with a fussy baby and pushed through the next day with a smile on my face.
Ive done the best/worst job in the world and Ive done it alone.
I am me nothing less nothing more.
Ive been told I am worthless and that I wont amount to anything.
Ive been told I am ugly and fat and no man would ever love me.
Yet here I stand a strong beautiful woman.
I am alone but I have two beautiful children.
I have friends that would drop everything to be by my side.
I have family that is there for me no matter what.
I am me nothing less nothing more.
What Is Happy?
Happy, what is happy?
I cant remember how to be happy.
My happiness faded away so long ago.
Every smile that has crossed my lips has been forced.
Behind every smile a tear waits to be shed.
Every minute of forced happiness is just one more minute I spend with my heart aching.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 16, 2003
I cant remember how to be happy.
My happiness faded away so long ago.
Every smile that has crossed my lips has been forced.
Behind every smile a tear waits to be shed.
Every minute of forced happiness is just one more minute I spend with my heart aching.
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 16, 2003
I Am A Mother
I am a mother.
I dont get a sick day.
I dont get personal days.
I dont get vacation time.
I dont get paid time off.
I am a mother.
I do get to stay up all night with kids who think its play time.
I do get to kiss all their booboos.
I do get to snuggle with sick babies untill the feel better.
I am a mother.
I put my babies first.
I am trying to give my babies the best life they can have.
I never want my babies to want for anything.
I am a mother.
Being a mother is the best job in the world and I would never change being a mother for anything in this world!
I AM A MOTHER
Mommy loves you Colton & Madilyn
I dont get a sick day.
I dont get personal days.
I dont get vacation time.
I dont get paid time off.
I am a mother.
I do get to stay up all night with kids who think its play time.
I do get to kiss all their booboos.
I do get to snuggle with sick babies untill the feel better.
I am a mother.
I put my babies first.
I am trying to give my babies the best life they can have.
I never want my babies to want for anything.
I am a mother.
Being a mother is the best job in the world and I would never change being a mother for anything in this world!
I AM A MOTHER
Mommy loves you Colton & Madilyn
A Faint Memory of My Past
When I close my eyes I see your face.
When I am alone I can still feel your touch.
If I think hard enough I can still taste your kiss.
And everyday I am not with you my heart breaks.
We were supposed to have the american dream.
We were supposed to grow old together.
We were supposed to have a family together.
But you destroyed my dreams with your lies, backstabbing, and cheating.
We had it all in our grasps and you blew it.
I no longer see your face or taste your kiss.
My heart has healed and I have moved on.
You are noe just a faint memory of my past.
But you will always think of me because I was the one you let get away.
written: May 30, 2011
Written for an ex
When I am alone I can still feel your touch.
If I think hard enough I can still taste your kiss.
And everyday I am not with you my heart breaks.
We were supposed to have the american dream.
We were supposed to grow old together.
We were supposed to have a family together.
But you destroyed my dreams with your lies, backstabbing, and cheating.
We had it all in our grasps and you blew it.
I no longer see your face or taste your kiss.
My heart has healed and I have moved on.
You are noe just a faint memory of my past.
But you will always think of me because I was the one you let get away.
written: May 30, 2011
Written for an ex
My best Friend, My Sister
You are my best friend my sister.
You are the one person I can count on everyone else turns their back on me.
You make me laugh when I wanna cry.
You boost my confidence when I am feeling worhtless.
You have faith in me everyone else tells me I'll never make it.
you make me smile even when I am having the worst day.
You are my best friend my sister.
Written: January 18, 2011
For Jess Carothers
You are the one person I can count on everyone else turns their back on me.
You make me laugh when I wanna cry.
You boost my confidence when I am feeling worhtless.
You have faith in me everyone else tells me I'll never make it.
you make me smile even when I am having the worst day.
You are my best friend my sister.
Written: January 18, 2011
For Jess Carothers
My Rock
You were my best friend my rock and I just threw it all away like it ment nothing.
But the more time that went on without us speaking made my heart ach.
You have been and always will be my best friend my sister my rock.
And the fact that we can spend all this time not speaking and just pick up where we left off just proves how close we are and how much we mean to each other.
You have been and always will be my best friend my sister my rock.
Written: April 27, 2011
Written For: Jessica Carothers
But the more time that went on without us speaking made my heart ach.
You have been and always will be my best friend my sister my rock.
And the fact that we can spend all this time not speaking and just pick up where we left off just proves how close we are and how much we mean to each other.
You have been and always will be my best friend my sister my rock.
Written: April 27, 2011
Written For: Jessica Carothers
A True Friend
A true friend is there for you no matter what the situtation is.
A true friend will knock you on your ass and then pick you back up.
A true friend will wipe away all your tears even if they caused them.
A true friend is always there to listen to you vent.
A true friend will tell you how she feels to your face not your back.
A true friend is you and I should have never let so much time go by without you in my life
Written: April 28, 2011
Written for: Jessica Carothers
A true friend will knock you on your ass and then pick you back up.
A true friend will wipe away all your tears even if they caused them.
A true friend is always there to listen to you vent.
A true friend will tell you how she feels to your face not your back.
A true friend is you and I should have never let so much time go by without you in my life
Written: April 28, 2011
Written for: Jessica Carothers
True Happiness
I have been waiting my whole life for true happiness.
I thought that money or material things would bring me happiness but all that brought me was a false high.
Then I thought a man could bring me true happiness and all that brought was heartach and tears.
Then one night I couldnt sleep so I just started thinking of my life and I relized that I have true happiness.
I have two wonderful angels and they are my happiness.
I have finally relized that nothing will ever make me as happy as my children make me!!
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
February 12, 2010
Written for: Colton and Madilyn
I thought that money or material things would bring me happiness but all that brought me was a false high.
Then I thought a man could bring me true happiness and all that brought was heartach and tears.
Then one night I couldnt sleep so I just started thinking of my life and I relized that I have true happiness.
I have two wonderful angels and they are my happiness.
I have finally relized that nothing will ever make me as happy as my children make me!!
Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
February 12, 2010
Written for: Colton and Madilyn
Every
Every morning I wake up to their beautiful faces.
Every night I kiss their sweet cheeks.
Every minute in between I watch them smile and play.
I consider every minute that I am with my wonderful children a blessing.
Life is too short to take enen one minute forgranted.
So i take the good with the bad and smile as I watch my babies play learn and grow
Every night I kiss their sweet cheeks.
Every minute in between I watch them smile and play.
I consider every minute that I am with my wonderful children a blessing.
Life is too short to take enen one minute forgranted.
So i take the good with the bad and smile as I watch my babies play learn and grow
Bitter Heart
I lay awake at night wishing my mr. right would come sweep me away.
But night after night I am left disapointed and bitter.
My heart has been broken so many times I dont even have all the pieces anymore.
I put on a happy face so noone will know that under my forced happiness is dispare and heartach.
My bitter heart cant take much more lonelyness.
All I am asking is for someone to see how special I am and give me a chance.
I am the sweetest most caring person you will ever meet and I deserve to be happy.
I am ready for my fairy tail ending so prince charming please come carry me away
But night after night I am left disapointed and bitter.
My heart has been broken so many times I dont even have all the pieces anymore.
I put on a happy face so noone will know that under my forced happiness is dispare and heartach.
My bitter heart cant take much more lonelyness.
All I am asking is for someone to see how special I am and give me a chance.
I am the sweetest most caring person you will ever meet and I deserve to be happy.
I am ready for my fairy tail ending so prince charming please come carry me away
When I Was A Little Girl
When I was a little girl id read fairy tails and dream one day my prince charming would come sweep me off my feet.
But the older I got I believed in fairy tails and happy endings less and less.
My heart has been ripped out and trampled on one to many times and my dreams a happy ending are slowly slipping away.
But the little girl inside my heart still hopes and dreams of that happy ending and when she closes her eyes she pictures his face.
She can see them living happily ever after and growing old together.
But then my reality sets in once more and I am in the real world where fairy tails and happy endings only exists in books
Written: May 9, 2011
But the older I got I believed in fairy tails and happy endings less and less.
My heart has been ripped out and trampled on one to many times and my dreams a happy ending are slowly slipping away.
But the little girl inside my heart still hopes and dreams of that happy ending and when she closes her eyes she pictures his face.
She can see them living happily ever after and growing old together.
But then my reality sets in once more and I am in the real world where fairy tails and happy endings only exists in books
Written: May 9, 2011
When will it be my turn for love??
I am ok with being alone right now because I have a great life.
I have 2 beautiful babies that I love with all of me, I have my own place!, I have a great job that I like for the most part lol!, and I am learning to stand on my own 2 feet
but I still feel like something is missing I hate going to bed each night yearning to be held, I hate waking up each morning and realizing part of my heart is empty
I just want to feel complete! I want to truly love someone and be truly loved back!
When will it be my turn for love??
I am ok with being alone right now because I have a great life.
I have 2 beautiful babies that I love with all of me, I have my own place!, I have a great job that I like for the most part lol!, and I am learning to stand on my own 2 feet
but I still feel like something is missing I hate going to bed each night yearning to be held, I hate waking up each morning and realizing part of my heart is empty
I just want to feel complete! I want to truly love someone and be truly loved back!
When will it be my turn for love??
Thursday, November 17, 2011
I dont want to settle
I don't want to settle.
I don't want to choose someone out of convince.
I don't want to become the type of person that always breaks my heart because I am just someone to waste time with until someone better comes along.
But I hate feeling so alone.
I hate going to sleep each night yearning to be held.
I hate having this big gaping hole in my chest where my heart should be.
I don't want to settle.
I want that one person who can make my knees go weak with just a simple touch.
I want someone who can make my heart do cartwheels by just walking in a room.
I want someone who can take my breath away just by kissing me.
I want my other half I feel like I have a part of me that is missing.....
I don't know what to do.... I have someone right in front of my who would treat me and my children great put as all on a pedestal but I don't know if he is truly what I want I don't feel that he is truly my other half
I don't know what to do... For all I know I am stupidly holding out for my one true love to realize that he wants to be with me too but he is happy in a relationship and I doubt if I will ever get my chance with him.
I don't know what do I just know I don't want to settle I want everything but I don't want to break someones heart because I am lonely...
I don't want to settle
I don't want to choose someone out of convince.
I don't want to become the type of person that always breaks my heart because I am just someone to waste time with until someone better comes along.
But I hate feeling so alone.
I hate going to sleep each night yearning to be held.
I hate having this big gaping hole in my chest where my heart should be.
I don't want to settle.
I want that one person who can make my knees go weak with just a simple touch.
I want someone who can make my heart do cartwheels by just walking in a room.
I want someone who can take my breath away just by kissing me.
I want my other half I feel like I have a part of me that is missing.....
I don't know what to do.... I have someone right in front of my who would treat me and my children great put as all on a pedestal but I don't know if he is truly what I want I don't feel that he is truly my other half
I don't know what to do... For all I know I am stupidly holding out for my one true love to realize that he wants to be with me too but he is happy in a relationship and I doubt if I will ever get my chance with him.
I don't know what do I just know I don't want to settle I want everything but I don't want to break someones heart because I am lonely...
I don't want to settle
Monday, November 14, 2011
One day
One day my heart will be whole again.
One day I will learn to stand on my own two feet.
One day I will learn to be truly happy on my own.
One day I will stop putting so much power into a mans hands.
One day when I have learned to truly love myself then I will find a man who can truly love me for me.
One day someone will realize that I was the one that got away.
One day I will hold my head high and be fine with just being me.
But today I am still searching for and trying to glue the pieces of my shattered heart back together.
Today I am still wobbly on my feet and need all the help I can get just to stand up straight.
Today I am unhappy broken and bruised.
Today any man I fall for will get my whole I will not be able to hold back.
Today I hate myself I think I am unattractive fat and unlovable I believe no man will ever truly love me.
Today I sit here thinking of the one I let get away wishing that when I had the chance I told him how I truly felt about him instead of sugar coating it to spare my heart.
Today I hang my head low to the ground and I feel like I will never be ok with just me.
One day I will be ok......
One day I will learn to stand on my own two feet.
One day I will learn to be truly happy on my own.
One day I will stop putting so much power into a mans hands.
One day when I have learned to truly love myself then I will find a man who can truly love me for me.
One day someone will realize that I was the one that got away.
One day I will hold my head high and be fine with just being me.
But today I am still searching for and trying to glue the pieces of my shattered heart back together.
Today I am still wobbly on my feet and need all the help I can get just to stand up straight.
Today I am unhappy broken and bruised.
Today any man I fall for will get my whole I will not be able to hold back.
Today I hate myself I think I am unattractive fat and unlovable I believe no man will ever truly love me.
Today I sit here thinking of the one I let get away wishing that when I had the chance I told him how I truly felt about him instead of sugar coating it to spare my heart.
Today I hang my head low to the ground and I feel like I will never be ok with just me.
One day I will be ok......
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Well I got brave this wknd with my bestie by my side I told the man that I have been in love with since I was 12 that I loved him it didnt go the I was hoping but he is happy in a relationship and even tho I may never get the chance to be with him I know he will always be there for me and I will always be there for him and no matter what I will always love him one or another and I know it may not be the way I love him but he will always love me! and that makes me happy! As long as he is happy I happy for him!
That is what love is giving your all to someone no matter how much it may hurt to see them with someone else!
If we are ment to be we will be if not then I will always have his friendship
I love you *******
That is what love is giving your all to someone no matter how much it may hurt to see them with someone else!
If we are ment to be we will be if not then I will always have his friendship
I love you *******
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Id follow you to the ends of the earth if u asked me to.
Id walk into the depths of hell it made you happy.
Id give you my soul if it put a smile on ur face.
Id give my life to keep you from harms way.
Id do anything to make you relize I love you.
All I am asking in return is that u just give me a chance.
I wrote this for some I care about deeply and yes I do love him but when I wrote this almost a year ago I wasnt brave to tell him when he asked who I loved that it was him and now he is with someone else and I am left yerning for time to go backwards so when he askes who I love I can scream from the rooftops YOU!! I just hope its not to late and one day he will relize that I love him and he is the one person who can fill the void inside my chest!
I love you *******
Id walk into the depths of hell it made you happy.
Id give you my soul if it put a smile on ur face.
Id give my life to keep you from harms way.
Id do anything to make you relize I love you.
All I am asking in return is that u just give me a chance.
I wrote this for some I care about deeply and yes I do love him but when I wrote this almost a year ago I wasnt brave to tell him when he asked who I loved that it was him and now he is with someone else and I am left yerning for time to go backwards so when he askes who I love I can scream from the rooftops YOU!! I just hope its not to late and one day he will relize that I love him and he is the one person who can fill the void inside my chest!
I love you *******
"love the way you lie"
"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn well that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry well that's alright cuz I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie"
I am so sick and tired of wearing my heart on my sleeve!
when I love someone I give them all of me and they take every bit they can and give nothing back in return!
Then they decide that I am not what they want and leave me broken and bruised gasping for air!
I am done! I cant take anymore!
Everyone is going to see a new Ariel! respect me if you want me to respect you! If you cant do that then F**k you!
I have strong sturdy walls around my heart now! It will take a lot to get them to crumble this time!
I will give you nothing and I will wait for me to give me your heart before I even consider giving you mine!
I am hard as stone now!
Why cant I just find love all I want is to be happy but apparently that is too much for me to ask because every time I turn around I get knocked to the ground!
"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry that's alright cuz I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie"
I am so sick and tired of wearing my heart on my sleeve!
when I love someone I give them all of me and they take every bit they can and give nothing back in return!
Then they decide that I am not what they want and leave me broken and bruised gasping for air!
I am done! I cant take anymore!
Everyone is going to see a new Ariel! respect me if you want me to respect you! If you cant do that then F**k you!
I have strong sturdy walls around my heart now! It will take a lot to get them to crumble this time!
I will give you nothing and I will wait for me to give me your heart before I even consider giving you mine!
I am hard as stone now!
Why cant I just find love all I want is to be happy but apparently that is too much for me to ask because every time I turn around I get knocked to the ground!
"Just gonna stand there and watch me burn that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry that's alright cuz I love the way you lie. I love the way you lie"
wow is all i can say
Well I though I finally struck gold when I started talking to a new guy!
I have not had much luck with men in the past they either want to use me for just one thing or they decied after I am already attached that I am just not what they want!
Well I really thought this new guy was diffrent I thought this time I found my prince charming my mr. right.... boy was I wrong!!
I just got a big text from my mr. wrong that his life is too complicated for a relationship right now ugh... story of my damn life!!
Oh well I guess its his loss and at least he gave me the heads up he was gonna stop talking to me that is more than I can say about guys I have dated in the past =(
I have not had much luck with men in the past they either want to use me for just one thing or they decied after I am already attached that I am just not what they want!
Well I really thought this new guy was diffrent I thought this time I found my prince charming my mr. right.... boy was I wrong!!
I just got a big text from my mr. wrong that his life is too complicated for a relationship right now ugh... story of my damn life!!
Oh well I guess its his loss and at least he gave me the heads up he was gonna stop talking to me that is more than I can say about guys I have dated in the past =(
I dont know how much more I can take
My son will be 5 in April and up until I had my daughter he was an angel and now he is a holly terror he hits smacks kicks pushes and everything else you can imagine to his sister and I just don't know how much more I can take.
We we moved into an apartment and he screams and hollers at the the top of his lungs and I am scared I am going to get kicked out because of it.
I just don't know know how much more I can take! I love my children with everything that is in me but some days i just want to run away screaming and hide under a rock until this little phase is over (gosh i hope this is just a phase and he will grow out of this ASAP)
I just don't know how much more I can take!!
We we moved into an apartment and he screams and hollers at the the top of his lungs and I am scared I am going to get kicked out because of it.
I just don't know know how much more I can take! I love my children with everything that is in me but some days i just want to run away screaming and hide under a rock until this little phase is over (gosh i hope this is just a phase and he will grow out of this ASAP)
I just don't know how much more I can take!!
Wednesday, November 9, 2011
Now its time for me to just ramble a bit lol...
I have been sitting here today just thinking because my kids have been napping for most of the day because they are sick = (.
But I am done with all the negitive in my life!
Life is wayyy to short to dwell upon the bad things that have happend!
Yes I have had loved onse pass away as well as friends that had barley even gotten to live.
Yes I have had my heartbroken so bad that i didnt think I would ever survive the pain that tore through my chest.
I have lost jobs and friends through my years.
I have sat up all night with sick kids.
I have done it all but I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!
Its time to turn over a new leaf and think of the good things!
I have the memories of the ones God chose to call home.
My heart has healed and I am now talking to a great guy who seems like he wouldnt intentually hurt me.
The jobs Ive lost oh well I have a job I like for the most part now and it pays the bills and I am going to school to be a vet tech so I can have a job I love because I love animals! The friends I lost just showed their true colors and couldnt handle me as a person! but Now I know who my real friends are one of them I have to mention and that is Jessica Carothers without her I would have withered away to nothing! I can never thank her enough for everything she has done for me and for her just being there!!!
And i would trade having my kids in my life for anything in the world!!
I have been sitting here today just thinking because my kids have been napping for most of the day because they are sick = (.
But I am done with all the negitive in my life!
Life is wayyy to short to dwell upon the bad things that have happend!
Yes I have had loved onse pass away as well as friends that had barley even gotten to live.
Yes I have had my heartbroken so bad that i didnt think I would ever survive the pain that tore through my chest.
I have lost jobs and friends through my years.
I have sat up all night with sick kids.
I have done it all but I am sick and tired of being sick and tired!
Its time to turn over a new leaf and think of the good things!
I have the memories of the ones God chose to call home.
My heart has healed and I am now talking to a great guy who seems like he wouldnt intentually hurt me.
The jobs Ive lost oh well I have a job I like for the most part now and it pays the bills and I am going to school to be a vet tech so I can have a job I love because I love animals! The friends I lost just showed their true colors and couldnt handle me as a person! but Now I know who my real friends are one of them I have to mention and that is Jessica Carothers without her I would have withered away to nothing! I can never thank her enough for everything she has done for me and for her just being there!!!
And i would trade having my kids in my life for anything in the world!!
Long Enough
I carried you inside me long enough to get attached to you.
Then one day all of a sudden you were gone.
I cant understand what I did to deserve such heartache all I did was love you and now your gone and I cant get you back.
You wont be forgotten I will always have you on my mind and carry you within my heart.
This was written for the baby I lost.
That was one of the hardest days of my life when I realized that I was having a miscarriage I felt the whole world crashing down around me I could actually feel my heart breaking. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about that precious child that I never got to meet or hold but I hope that little angel is looking down from heaven knowing that I loved him/her with all of my heart and even though I never met him/her he/she will always be apart of my life. I do have two beautiful children now that I wouldnt trade for anything else in this world but there are days that I feel like something is missing and part of what is missing is that sweet baby looking down on me from heaven! Mommy love you Colton, Madilyn, and My sweet baby in heaven
Then one day all of a sudden you were gone.
I cant understand what I did to deserve such heartache all I did was love you and now your gone and I cant get you back.
You wont be forgotten I will always have you on my mind and carry you within my heart.
This was written for the baby I lost.
That was one of the hardest days of my life when I realized that I was having a miscarriage I felt the whole world crashing down around me I could actually feel my heart breaking. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't think about that precious child that I never got to meet or hold but I hope that little angel is looking down from heaven knowing that I loved him/her with all of my heart and even though I never met him/her he/she will always be apart of my life. I do have two beautiful children now that I wouldnt trade for anything else in this world but there are days that I feel like something is missing and part of what is missing is that sweet baby looking down on me from heaven! Mommy love you Colton, Madilyn, and My sweet baby in heaven
Fate
Fate brought your hearts together.
The stars led you to each other.
This love was written in the skies long before you ever knew each other.
There is no doubt that God knew what he was doing when he wrote you two into each other's fate.
Now its plain to see when you are together its just you and no one else.
When you are together no one else matters.
When you look into each others eyes it is plain to see that this love will last an eternity.
And when you are together there is no question about it the whole world knows you were meant for each other.
Written for: Jessica and Justin Carothers
The stars led you to each other.
This love was written in the skies long before you ever knew each other.
There is no doubt that God knew what he was doing when he wrote you two into each other's fate.
Now its plain to see when you are together its just you and no one else.
When you are together no one else matters.
When you look into each others eyes it is plain to see that this love will last an eternity.
And when you are together there is no question about it the whole world knows you were meant for each other.
Written for: Jessica and Justin Carothers
Tomorrow
I love you more today but not more than yesterday and never more than the tomorrows to come.
No matter how far apart we are from are from each other no matter how many oceans come between us I want you to remember that our hearts will always beat together.
A million years could pass with me not being able to see you and my love for you will be just as strong as it was when I met you.
I love you more today but not more than yesterday and never more than the tomorrows to come.
You will never lose me as long as our hearts beat in the same rythem.
If I ever get married this will be part of my wedding vows
No matter how far apart we are from are from each other no matter how many oceans come between us I want you to remember that our hearts will always beat together.
A million years could pass with me not being able to see you and my love for you will be just as strong as it was when I met you.
I love you more today but not more than yesterday and never more than the tomorrows to come.
You will never lose me as long as our hearts beat in the same rythem.
If I ever get married this will be part of my wedding vows
Thick As Theives
We met by accident but we have been thick as theives ever since.
We have been there for each other through everything.
You have been my sholder to cry on when some jerk broke my heart.
I was your therpist when things didnt quite go your way.
we have had our disagreements we even parted ways for a bit but we found our way back to each other.
You are more than a friend to me you are family.
I can see us now ninty years old sitting in our rocking chairs remanising about the good ol' days.
I use to sit around and pray for a friend that I could share all my hopes and fears with.
A friend that I knew wouldnt judge me or put me down no matter what's going on in my life.
A friend that I can call at 3am because something either went terribly right or terribly wrong.
A friend that no matter what would always be there for me to either celebrate with me or to hold me while I cry.
And then nine years ago you dropped into my life like and angel straight from heaven.
You will always be my best friend and sister.
I will always have your back and I know you will always have mine.
I prayed for a friend that that I could share everything with and God gave me you.
I am thankful everyday that you are in my life I honestly couldnt have made it though alot of what has happened in my life if it wernt you being there to hold my hand and tell me everything will be ok.
You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for and I am truly blessed to be able to say you are my best friend!
Written for: Jessica Carothers
We have been there for each other through everything.
You have been my sholder to cry on when some jerk broke my heart.
I was your therpist when things didnt quite go your way.
we have had our disagreements we even parted ways for a bit but we found our way back to each other.
You are more than a friend to me you are family.
I can see us now ninty years old sitting in our rocking chairs remanising about the good ol' days.
I use to sit around and pray for a friend that I could share all my hopes and fears with.
A friend that I knew wouldnt judge me or put me down no matter what's going on in my life.
A friend that I can call at 3am because something either went terribly right or terribly wrong.
A friend that no matter what would always be there for me to either celebrate with me or to hold me while I cry.
And then nine years ago you dropped into my life like and angel straight from heaven.
You will always be my best friend and sister.
I will always have your back and I know you will always have mine.
I prayed for a friend that that I could share everything with and God gave me you.
I am thankful everyday that you are in my life I honestly couldnt have made it though alot of what has happened in my life if it wernt you being there to hold my hand and tell me everything will be ok.
You are the best friend anyone could ever ask for and I am truly blessed to be able to say you are my best friend!
Written for: Jessica Carothers
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