I dont want to settle

I don't want to settle.
I don't want to choose someone out of convince.
I don't want to become the type of person that always breaks my heart because I am just someone to waste time with until someone better comes along.
But I hate feeling so alone.
I hate going to sleep each night yearning to be held.
I hate having this big gaping hole in my chest where my heart should be.
I don't want to settle.
I want that one person who can make my knees go weak with just a simple touch.
I want someone who can make my heart do cartwheels by just walking in a room.
I want someone who can take my breath away just by kissing me.
I want my other half I feel like I have a part of me that is missing.....

I don't know what to do.... I have someone right in front of my who would treat me and my children great put as all on a pedestal but I don't know if he is truly what I want I don't feel that he is truly my other half
I don't know what to do... For all I know I am stupidly holding out for my one true love to realize that he wants to be with me too but he is happy in a relationship and I doubt if I will ever get my chance with him.
I don't know what do I just know I don't want to settle I want everything but I don't want to break someones heart because I am lonely...
I don't want to settle