Long Night

Well just got home a little bit ago from taking my baby girl to the ER =( they took a chest X-RAY and they said it was too faint to tell but they were almost postive that she has phenomenae I hate my baby is sick it makes me want to cry =( all I want to do is hold her all night this is by far the worst holiday season ive ever had =( I am just hoping this is as bad as it gets and she doesnt end up having to say in the hospital! Mommy loves you baby girl =(

I am a strong woman!

I am finally realizing that I am strong woman!
I am learning that I can stand on my own two feet and that I am going to be ok!
Yes there will be times that I am going to fall but I have great family members and a great friend (Jessica Carothers) who will either be there to catch me or pick me up and dust me off.
Yes I have scares and bruises that will never fully heal but they are my reminders of the roads I don't want to go back down.
I am sure that while I am turning to this new chapter in my life that I will run into some speed bumps and get some paper cuts but I will just take the good with bad and try to focus on the positive.
Yes I am gonna have bad days where I am sad and want to cry but that is normal.
It is just time for me to grow up and be the best mommy I can be!
My kids are my world and I love them more than anything else in the world and its time that I stop chasing these silly boys and focus on my babies, school, work, keeping my head above water, and giving my babies the best life I can give them!
I am a strong independent woman!

choices

Do I listen to my head or do I listen to my heart??
My head is telling me to give up and move on! If I continue trying to be with him then I will contiue feeling alone and not know when the next time I will hear from him and I dont know if I can live like that!
My heart is telling me give him one more chance! I do love him and I want "us" to make it! I just dont know how much more I can handle.
I have some major thinking to do and defintly have some choices to make.
Do I liaten to my head or my heart??

Stolen Heart

My heart achs without you but when I am with you my heart feels like a million butterflies flying free.

I love the way you hold me in your arms like it was our last night on earth together.

I love the feel of your soft sweet lips on mine.

I love the way you look into my eyes and tell me I am the only girl you will ever love.

I love the feel of your smooth body intertwined with mine.

I love the feel of your finger tips tracing every inch of my body.

Then I wake up from this wonderful dream and relize that I am alone and your heart still belong to someone else.

Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
February 4, 2003

One More Chance To Live

My heart breaks everytime I think fo the love I lost when I lost you.

I miss your arms wrapped around my waist.

I miss getting lost in your eyes.

I miss the way you always put a smile on my face even when I was in the worst mood.

When I was with you it was like a breath of fresh air.

You made life worth living and now without you in my life there is nothing to live for.

I just want one more chance to prove how much I love you.

I want one more chance to live.

Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 17, 2003

First Impression

We talked all night we shared stories, smiles, and heartach.

Through all of this I never would have thought a first impresson would have such an effect on me.

I never thought with just a first impression I would know this is where I was ment to end up.

So I am going to take this first impression and hold it close to my heart and never let it go.

And if this is as far as we ever get at least I will always have that sweet first impression.

Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
June 16, 2003

A Simple Touch

His hand touched my face and I relized what I lost.

He held me in his arms and I just felt like I was where I was supposed to be.

I lost him because I was so wrapped up in myself.

I was young and stupid he treated me like a goddess and I just left him hanging in the wind.

If I could take back everything bad I would in a heartbeat.

I guess that old saying "you never know what you have untill its gone" really applies here.

Why couldnt I have relized what I had before I lost it.

I would give anything to be with him again.

I relized I lost the greatest thing that ever happened to me with just one simple touch

Written by: Ariel Marie Tomblin
July 10, 2003